how to say ouch: mercury/chiron [#StarsAndSymbols]

i’ve been locking my hair for a little over a year now, and despite what some may think, such a style can require some heavy maintenance for the past however many hours, i’ve endured the arduous process of getting my hair done, which for me consists of re-twisting what hair people refer to as new growth. growing up in the era of lil’ bow wow inspired boy cornrows, i dread the moment i sit and submit to the torture, as i am what they call “tender-headed.” in other words, my sensitive head hurts a little too easily.

“does any of this hurt?” asked my mom, aka my part-time hair stylist, as the hair in her hand pulled on the perimeter of my scalp.

“yes,” i replied with false placidity, like a professional pain-taker.

“well, i wouldn’t know, you ain’t say nothin!” she admitted. “you gotta let people know when you’re in pain.”

such a simple conversation struck me like a lightning bolt. for whatever reason i have learned how to grin and bear it, thinking this as some sort of strength when it’s more like denial. aside from situations beyond our control, we allow everything that is inflicted upon us when we give silent permission, so it is our responsibility to vocalize the discomfort we feel at any given moment.

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3/30/14: relinquishing resentment [#MyBestWeek]

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eyes avert. conversation ceases. the air is uneasy. this is that awkward moment when we walk into a room, overcome by the feeling that someone was just talking about us. neptune is our connection to the collective unconscious, aka the stuff we all know that sometimes goes unnoticed as it exists a right below the realm of our awareness. it is up to us to tune into the spiritual world, and although the vibrations are not physically tangible, the impressions they leave are undeniable. deceitful delusions and self-defeating confusion can be avoided by purging our energy bodies of all that we have absorbed.

the atmosphere as of late may have been aggressive as indicated by aries. as the first sign of the zodiac, the ram is quick to get fired up. tempers flare and impulses are acted upon. there is not turning back once the move is made, so we must be brave enough to confront our fears head on. sometimes we charge too hard, and while it is best not to dwell, anger swells as a results of bruised egos and it becomes a challenge to let go of what hurts. when we become so distracted by the painful disillusionment of combat that we lose our sense of self, we must meditate on the meaning of forgiveness.

our relationships are affected when we don’t set aside time to get ourselves together. the 7th house represents the astrological other, and it is impossible to be a pure-hearted partner if we are too preoccupied with the bitterness of our hidden indignation. it is not fair to the people we care about to harbor hate when we relate to them. the fair thing to do would be to relinquish the resentment and reestablish harmony.

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4 sided figure [#ScrambledArt]

born on the edge of a square i was

sharp as a razor indeed

touched by an angle at 90 degrees

punctured beyond the point of a shape

distinguishable and basic are 2 adjectives

but they do not describe or comprise my being

steadfast is my preference and still i strive

i’d give it all for the predictability of peace

although it seems like i get a rise out of earthquakes

it is surely because the way my foundation is laid

says i’m made to withstand the gravest chaos

built to last through bad circumstance due to my past

and the role the rigid inner friction of my youth played

the cold hearted killer called truth was my conditioner

bulletproofed vest so they can’t penetrate or procure

the nest i built within my boundaries is secure

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blessed be

this 4 sided figure

through which every trigger

is endured

my best week: 3/23/14 [#StarsAndSymbols]

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there is a lot of work to be done this week before we can consider ourselves accomplished. to make life a little easier, saturn says we concentrate on what matters most. ambition is excellent but it takes disciplined organization to materialize greatness. we are not bound to dedicating our time to that which is not worthy.

it is our job to be orderly and the first step is to identify priority number 1. we all have goals, but which is the most urgent and why? this certainty will help us to channel the force of our being constructively. aries is action, but it is in our best interest this week to plot our steps strategically rather than rashly acting on impulse instead of staying on task.

a balanced approach makes everything seem a lot less tedious. instead of trying unsuccessfully to swallow a whole sandwich on our 30 minute lunch break, let’s take small bites and chew steadily so that the flavor is savored with time enough to make it back to that oh-so-important office meeting! while there may be a lot to do in the 7th House, it is never to be done all at once nor all alone (why not share half of the sandwich with a hungry coworker?). a little here, a little there, and our mission will be accomplished without the unnecessary exhaustion.

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my best week: 3/16/14 [#StarsAndSymbols]

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the moon affects the tides of the earth, rising them high and letting them fall. in astrology, lunar energy represents the ebb and the flow of our feelings as we receive the energy around us. some vibrations leave stronger impressions on us, and sometimes we are more receptive to them. some may call it moody, but let’s look at it as fluctuation. the moon is always going through a phase, so it never stays the same. comfort gives most of us some sort of security, but as long there is something to be felt, there is the chance we could be carried away by a tidal wave.

are we swimming up or downstream? maybe, quite possibly both! pisces left alone in its natural habitat is a little… all over the place, not easily contained as it tries to float away. there is no use for a fish to have its feet on the ground, because we all know it has fins to swim, and life is much more magical when we dive in and imbibe the brew of the universe. intoxication can help us temporarily escape from the turmoil that seems to trap us, but we risk self-sabotage when we become addicted to deception. we must tune into the higher power of the current to avoid drowning in delusion.

still water runs deeper in the 8th house. the surface simply will not suffice. probing the depths is a daunting job, but someone’s gotta do it. it can be hard to see clearly when we are digging in the dark, and while obscured excavation can be dangerous, it only strengthens the other senses. if destruction is a possibility, so is regeneration. this process may be taxing but if we believe it will pay off, it probably will. let’s plunge into the sea and discover the treasure that lies 8,000 leagues beneath.

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the ides of march: virgo full moon [#StarsAndSymbols]

“beware the ides of march.”

“what’s that?”

“did you read julius caesar?”

“no.”

“me neither. but today’s march 15, the day caesar was stabbed in the back by his best friend.”

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i don’t know if that’s entirely accurate or just a loose interpretation of an age old literary classic. like a game of telephone, things get lost in translation. regardless of who he was killed, he is still dead, and thus the legend remains. despite our interpersonal melodramas, i doubt many of us are being literally backstabbed on this fine day, so why not frame this warning a little differently? Continue reading

basic shapes: square [#StarsAndSymbols]

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Let’s continue building on these basic shapes by interpreting the symbolism of the square!

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my best week: 3/9/14 [#StarsAndSymbols]

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let’s get lucky! that’s the least we can do with jupiter in the mix. even if we don’t get it right the first time, the largest planet in the solar system is like a goody bag of chances, restoring our faith in future possibilities. if there’s a risk, we want to take it, because whether we come up or crap out, jupiter is all about the experience and the wisdom that comes along with it. a small loss means very little in the grand scheme of things, so it pays to think expansively. sagittarius, the sign associated with jupiter, ups the ante by aiming for a big adventure. when we have a target in mind and an eye for opportunity, playing roulette doesn’t seem so irresponsible. with the odds in our favor, why wouldn’t we want to gamble?

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behind every grand prize is a page of fine print, so it is in our best interest to zoom to the grand vision we thought we saw so clearly, lest we miss an important detail. the 3rd house (in association with gemini, opposite sign of sagittarius) represents the lower logic needed to put together to pieces of the game-winning puzzle. it is great to live high stakes, but we would be foolish not to learn from every mistake and adapt our approach every step of the way. figuratively speaking, being flexibly intellectual increases the likelihood of hitting the lottery.

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