Venus [in Pisces] conjunct Chiron [in Pisces]
Venus [in Pisces] sextile Pluto [in Capricorn]
Moon [in LIbra] conjunct North Node [in Libra]
Moon [in LIbra] opposite Uranus [in Aries]
Moon [in LIbra] square Pluto [in Capricorn]
Moon [in LIbra] sextile Juno [in Leo], Pallas [in Sagittarius]
Moon [in LIbra] inconjunct Venus/Neptune/Chiron [in Pisces]
Just because it isn’t pretty doesn’t mean you shouldn’t go there. Just because it doesn’t feel good doesn’t mean it isn’t valuable. Isn’t it true that the beauty of discomfort is in its potential?
There would be no pleasure without the litmus test of pain, and you are like a moth to a flame. You say you’ve had better days, but the fire’s reflection in your eyes says otherwise. If you’re willing to get burnt, then it must be worth it, unless you’re just addicted to mysteries of the healing process.
Be real. Everybody knows you like it more than you care to admit, yet you keep it hidden. What, are you scared they will think you strange? Such a judgment simply infers the judge went out of his way to stare. Sharing your embarrassment may be the only way to establish a new normal. Perhaps the world has been waiting for you to open up this whole time and bring awareness to this unrealized way of being. Your preferences are perplexing, but claiming them you might just introduce an effectively attractive alternative. If not you, than who?