Sun [in Cancer] trine Moon [in Pisces]
Sun [in Cancer] opposite Pluto [in Capricorn]
Moon [in Pisces] conjunct Neptune/Chiron [jn Pisces]
Moon [in Pisces] square Pallas [in Sagittarius]
Moon [in Pisces] sextile Pluto [in Capricorn]
Taking on more responsibility than you are able to shoulder might make you feel like you are powerful for a brief moment, but the effects will be insidious if continued. Whatever you are trying to prove by going out of your way to identify so intensely with such an unnecessary burden is rooted in a peculiar psychological pattern that must be exposed immediately. Doing everything yourself with no sort of delegation is another way, albeit cloaked in the guise of ambition, to manipulate the situation so that you are never powerless to an unanticipated variable, instead of allowing life to unfold as it will. You may even believe you are doing The Others a favor by assuming their share of duty, but as your fear-based motivations come up from the unconscious realm into the light of awareness today, interpersonal resentment could threaten to poison your relationships.
Although your intentions are probably not malicious, your pessimistic conditioning is still liable to annoy someone else who is sick of having their free will compromised by your busybody behavior. What do you believe in your heart will happen if you lighten your load? Are you afraid that you will be betrayed if you surrender your control to someone else who might be just as capable, if not more capable, of getting the job done? Could your insecurities be compelling you to overcompensate at the cost of intimacy? Perhaps the problem is that you don’t trust other people to produce work that lives up to your standard you imagine, but instead of being honest about your personal perceptions, you passive aggressively repress your truth, hoping that they feel guilty with incompetence as they watch you strain against the mountain you call yourself moving. How shady…
Whatever your issue is, the sooner you realize its cause, the better off everyone will be. The reaction to the disdain du jour may be to blame or shame whoever crosses your path, but if you’re conscience isn’t clean, pointing the finger might say more about you than the one you are persecuting. The “truth” you’ve constructed is bound to be seen through, and once your own hidden agendas are brought up to the surface in the unbiased light of day, you will have no choice but to express everything that was previously obscured. By purging yourself of internal blockages, you will be transformed by your own healing, and the way you relate to the outside world will evolve in all the most profound ways. To walk around with a heavy weight on your back is a slow suicide, so it is only when you give it up that you will experience the pleasure of a partnership in which the power is balanced, authentic feelings are allowed to be felt, and beautiful solutions are created with confidence that true love transcends even the most oppressive obstacles.