agree to disagree [#freewrite]

Here’s a little piece I wrote back in November of 2012. The sentiment for me is just as strong, if not stronger, as it was when it was written. This was astrologically unrelated at the moment of conception, but it relates to the sky right now with Mars [in Libra] squaring Pluto/Sun/Mercury [in Capricorn] and opposing Uranus [in Aries], causing internal friction that is triggered by (and possibly projected onto) relationships and other external occurrences. On top of that, Venus [in the later degrees of Capricorn] is now retrograde, altering the way in which we relate to others. Some of us are living in a fierce tempest as earthly existence mirrors the tumult of the cosmos, so I feel that this Tumblr post is as relevant as ever, whether or not you agree or disagree 😉


Agree to Disagree:

“Let’s agree to disagree.”

Hmm… Let’s not. Agreeing to disagree is a copout.

Don’t get me wrong. With my greatest effort, I aim for agreement. It feels great to be on the same page with other people. That said, a little disagreement never hurt anyone. Why sugarcoat the disagreement by “agreeing” to it? That’s just disrespectful. If I don’t agree, I DO NOT AGREE, at all.

It’s not that I don’t see the other point of view. In fact, I think I worry too much about other points of view, as I pride myself on being diplomatic. Unfortunately, diplomacy is not always enough, and we disagree. Disagreement is the inability to muster even the slightest ounce of agreement. If we’re going to disagree, let’s commit to our disagreement. Live in it. Embrace it.

don’t agree to disagree. I disagree. I revel in disagreement.

a cokehead president [improv thursdaze]


Gerald, President of Student Council, might have a drug problem. Also, Susie is a bitch.

the big (quick) review: jupiter in gemini [astroloco]

The past year has seen us verbalizing our beliefs. Our abundant curiosity has taken us on many journeys. We have learned many meaningful lessons, and have been more than excited to share what we have learned with the people in our social sphere. Question is, are we practicing what we’ve preached, or are we opting instead for the doctrine of duality?


We have taken in so much with Jupiter in Gemini that I think it would be worthwhile to review all the discoveries we have made during this transit. Studies have been expanded, faith has been tested by unpredictable circumstances, and our networks have grown exponentially. As Jupiter approaches the final degree of Gemini, we must find a moment to process the stimulating variety of wisdom we have happened upon.

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uranus/pluto square [astroloco]

(May 20, 2013 @ 6 PM)

A rude awakening or a conscious evolution? This is the 3rd Uranus/Pluto square of 7 [2012-2015], and we are transcending with each trigger. Release whatever is keeping you vibrating at a low frequency in order to connect to your highest self.

This square [challenging aspect] in particular is exact at 11 degrees Aries [Uranus] and Capricorn [Pluto]. If you remember our numerology lesson, 11 is a master number with a intuitively spiritual vibration. Some people make a wish when they see 11:11, and whether or not they know it, seeing this number sequences signifies a shift in consciousness. It is no coincidence that these planets are squaring each other in 11 degrees of their respective signs. We are being upgraded.

Although the square is the main attraction, there are other, more favorable aspects involved. Uranus in Aries is sextile Mercury and Venus in Gemini. The newfound self-awareness  that we are experiencing [Uranus in Aries] is shifting the way we think and communicate [Mercury], as well as what we appreciate and value in our exchanges with other people [Venus]. Pluto in Capricorn is sextile Saturn in Scorpio and Neptune in Pisces. The powerful occult understanding of shadowy societal structures that we are unearthing [Pluto in Capricorn] is transforming our perception of reality [Saturn] and fantasy [Neptune]. Despite the frightening amount of commotion this square is causing, it is making some exciting (and necessary) aspects.


When we are conscious of this energy and the symbolic planetary relationships, it is easy to see we are evolving. We can embrace this energy by paying attention to where the overwhelming feeling of frustration manifests in our lives, because that is where this square is being played out. To varying degrees, we are all being deprogrammed and reprogrammed to live in alignment with our truest selves. It seems hard, as change usually is, but it doesn’t have to be.

It’s easy to be pushed when we’re standing still, so why not make the first move? This is a new age! All you have to do is turn the page.

“what was ruined” by rob jenkins [documentary]

Before I began this blog, I was blessed to be cast in a very special production. Although our production is over, the story we told is a story that STILL needs to be heard. Fortunately, my friend made a documentary out of it. Please watch…

What Was RUINED? by Rob Jenkins

What was Ruined?-The documentary based on the play Ruined by Lynn Nottage. Both the play and this documentary discuss rape, war and the conditions of the Democratic Republic of the Congo. 

Ruined was performed at Marymount Manhattan College in the fall semester of 2012. This documentary was filmed during the preparation of the play.

The film contains clips from documentaries such as ‘Women on the Frontline- Democratic Republic of Congo” , “Crisis in the Congo: Uncovering the Truth” and “The Greatest Silence:Rape in the Congo”. It also contains footage of the play as well as actor interviews.

moving forward [all planets direct]

If you’re anything like me, the past few months have been challenging. Plans were derailed and lives were changed, forcing us to take timeout to reflect on our setbacks. There is a lesson in every opposition, but that doesn’t always matter in the moment. Sometimes it just sucks.

It has sucked a lot less since Jupiter [in Gemini] went direct on January 30th. Jupiter was the last of 2012’s retrograde planets, and for a rare couple of weeks, all the planets are direct. All the energy that was temporarily introverted is free to flow again, just the way we want it. This is an ideal time to initiate a project, commit to a relationship, or make an important decision, as there is nothing holding us back. Move forward, now.


Saturn turns retrograde on February 18, so do what you gotta do.

saturn in scorpio: bad breakup [#StarsAndSymbols]

We never really anticipate a breakup when we enter into a relationship. If we did, it wouldn’t make sense to even initiate the relationship in the first place. Despite our high hopes and expectations, these things don’t always go as planned. When I started my first semester of college three and half years ago, I definitely didn’t plan for it to end up this way.

Three and a half years ago, Saturn went into Libra. This transit forced us to slow down and structure our so-called relationships. We learned the discipline of partnership, how to give and receive with other people.  Now that Saturn is in Scorpio, the honeymoon is over. Now the focus is on commitment, intimacy, and shared resources. If the relationships we developed when Saturn was in Libra were not built on a solid foundation, Saturn in Scorpio will make this painfully clear to us, as we will not be able to fake it any longer. The deep, dark truths of our bonds will surface and we will be forced to make a major choice; move forward or divorce.

My school and I are taking somewhat of an extended break right. If our relationship were on Facebook, it would be very, very “complicated.” I was just kicked out of my dorm (one semester shy of my graduation) because my family wasn’t able to pay last semester’s balance. Times are hard, but I guess that doesn’t matter (even if I have attended the same college for nearly four years and paid all six previous semesters). At the end of the day, this “educational institution” is a business, first and foremost. And to think I thought we had something special…


I never thought my first big breakup would be with my college, but what can you do? As much as I want to sing “We are never, ever, ever getting back together”, I have one semester left until Destination: Graduation, and it would only make sense to go back in the near future and get my degree out of the way. Until then, I’m excited to expand my horizons and explore my options. This will be my first time not being in school for almost twenty years, and I will make the most of it.

cold war [mars in aquarius]

You probably think I’m uninterested. I don’t mean to appear indifferent, it’s just challenging to act out my passion when it’s so… intellectual. If you could only see how my mind races with possibilities, you would know how I really feel! You want me now, and that’s cool, but I’m busy fighting against the system. Fighting for my future. Despite daily disruption and sudden, life-altering changes, I am fighting. Maybe that’s why I seem preoccupied.

Mars is in Aquarius right now [December 25, 2012 – February 1, 2013]. During this transit, we fight to unite people from all spectrums of life. We are motivated [Mars] to associate with big groups of people [Aquarius], as the collective energy is great for actualizing ideas. Even though we instinctively want to connect with the world at large, we become distant when our liberty is threatened. We make less of an effort to deal with people one-on-one out of fear that we will be tied down and suffocated. When people want special treatment, we assert [Mars] our independence [Aquarius]. We declare a cold war. We become unavailable.

I know I am unavailable right now, but all I need is time to be and space to breathe. My energy is everywhere at once, equally distributed, trying to save the world for tomorrow’s sake. Our day will soon come, so I hope you’re not angry with me. In the mean time, feel free to initiate a conversation. Mental stimulation is very necessary. Just make sure you say something… shocking! Excitement is desirable.

mercury in capricorn [astroloco]

(December 31, 2012 – January 18, 2013)

Be mindful of the words you choose. Do they convey the image you’d like to portray? Are people willing to listen to what you have to say and is it worth it?

Plan ahead, be prepared, but keep it simple. If you are focusing on negativity, you probably have too much time on your hands. Let your pessimistic thoughts mentally motivate you to realize plans.

back to school [jupiter retrograde]

“You will go back to school.”

That is what the psychic told me last year [right around the time dreamy Neptune dove into the intuitive pool of Pisces]. It was the beginning of my Spring 2012 semester of college, either February or March, and I had just been seduced into an impromptu Lower East Side palm reading. It was my first time and I was conflicted. While some of her insights were debatable, nothing she said was flat-out false. Initially, I dismissed her school prediction. Sure, I had a “situation” the prior semester, but we were able to pay and register. Maybe she was on to something, though, because I’ve had two more of those “situations” since the reading.

Like right now. I’m somewhere in the midst of my six-week winter vacation. The chances of me returning to school for the Spring 2013 semester are slim. We just don’t have the money to pay last semester’s balance, and I can’t register for any new classes until it’s paid. I’ve been trying to find private loans, but I don’t meet the qualifications. If I don’t find a way to pay at least a fraction of my balance in the next week, I will be taking the semester off to live back at home, work, and pay my own tuition for the first time.

I only have one more semester of college to complete to reach Destination: Graduation, so (naturally) I would prefer to go back and get my degree in May. It would just make more sense to get it out of the way. Plus, I’ve gotten so used to city life, the prospect of living back at home full-time is unsettling. It’s like I have to relearn everything I used to know, but in a new era. What makes it worse is that I’m not even coming home with my degree. The last thing I want to do is waste three and a half years worth of time and money by not going back. As we all know, most people who take breaks from school never return.

But some people DO go back to school!

Like my mother, who is now enrolled as a part-time student at the local community college. She got her ID and class schedule yesterday. She briefly attended this same school over 20 years ago, before I was born. The excitement I felt for my mom helped ease the frustration I’ve been feeling toward my own educational experience. Her triumph has indirectly helped me to see the big picture.

Jupiter is big picture. Jupiter [in Gemini] is retrograde [until January 30th], which means it appears to be moving backward in the sky. This is not actually happening, but is instead an optical illusion. Retrogrades are symbolic periods of revisitation, in which we review, redo, and reflect on unfinished business from the past. Planetary energy is temporarily redirected inward, disrupting the external world as we know it. When expansive Jupiter is retrograde, sometimes even the best laid plans fail to launch. Doors that were wide open seem to close right in our faces, prompting us to look inside ourselves for a deeper meaning and a sense of abundance.

Education is ruled by Jupiter [as well as Gemini], so I’d say this Jupiter retrograde [in Gemini] is the perfect time to go back at school. Unless of course you’re like me, and you have to take a break. In that case, I say follow the signs. I know it’s cliché, but everything happens for a reason, in due time. Though I am in limbo right now, unsure and confused about my future, I am open to any outcome. I have the rest of my life to live, more journeys to take, and plenty of time to fulfill my clairvoyant verdict.