on a limb with a vulture [#ScrambledArt]

this feeling is so familiar. peeled away layers. the pang of a bared soul, vulnerable and exposed for everyone to see. i put myself out there on the limb of a tree and waited for you, but instead a vulture came to feast, leading me to believe i’m either dead or slowly dying. now i’m crying for you in a public place, tears displaced. they stain my face as i peer into the mirror behind the bar at the man who looks as though he should have it all together.

i’d like to think i knew better, but there was something special about you.

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go there, but don’t stay: 8/3/14 [#MyBestWeek]

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one of the most gut-wrenching feelings is to desire something or someone so fervently only to have it be snatched away in plain sight. there is little we can do to overcome that anguish, so our only choice is to live with it, to feel it completely. cry if need be. it is important for us to go there, but it would be a mistake to stay. self-destruction and downward spirals are the results of festering sentiment that has found no outlet or expression. if we have it, we have to do something with it, or else it will do something to us.

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the roots & the tree: capricorn full moon [#StarsAndSymbols]

one of the great things about roots is how they provide the tree with the support necessary to uphold its composure as it climbs great heights. if there is no foundation, there is no growth. that said, the fullest way for the tree to honor its roots is to challenge itself to reach higher than it ever has. after all, isn’t that the purpose of planting seeds in the first place?

with the sun in cancer, we are focused on the acknowledgment of the deepest, most familiar facets of our personhood. to nourish and protect the life force within is the instinct that keeps each species going from generation to generation. It may not always make rational sense, but thanks to intuition and the assortment of other gifts stored away in our ancestral goodie bags, we know what we have to do at any given moment to preserve this fragile existence. to sustain our lineage is encoded in our dna.

before we get too comfortable, we must remember that no matter how well acclimatized we are, every season presents its challenges. without the occasional obstacle, the experience of life would be too subjective to sustain the dynamism of authentic expression in all its completeness. that is where the full moon in capricorn, which opposes the cancer sun, comes into play. we are feeling the subconscious call to endeavor toward the practical attainment of worldly accomplishment. our survival skills mean little if we do not at some point assume responsibility for the successful advancement of the family name beyond the home and into the stratosphere of society. the tangible achievements we need to satisfy this obscure hunger are the products of structure, goals, and concentrated motivation.

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the alchemist: 6/29/14 [#MyBestWeek]

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it is easy this week for us to identify exactly where we are losing life force energy by giving away our power. there are many ways we keep ourselves powerless without even realizing it. in order to bring these unconscious tendencies into the realm of awareness, we must honestly assess the interactions and activities that leave us feeling drained.

the crash of disappointment that is experienced after the false fulfillment of temporary satisfaction is an indication that we are wasting our energy on instant gratification and superficially quick results rather than exercising the full potential and focused patience of true power. is it easy to believe that we become more powerful by controlling external circumstances, specifically the people in our environments, but that is untrue. by focusing on manipulation of the “other” to get what we want instead of trusting our ability to successfully navigate any possible scenario, we actually forfeit all self-control, rendering us powerless. when things don’t go our way, many of us hold grudges that affect us adversely while the objects of our contempt are living their lives, unbothered and empowered by our resentment. obsession, addiction, attachment, the list goes on, and these are all ways we unknowingly relinquish our personal power. as the self-sabotage becomes clearer, the next logical step is to change our ways.

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shea butter [#ScambledArt]

yellow
like the sun that tried
to shine in march
as I took steps forward
after being knocked back
life has a knack for being
unexpected
i wonder
if the moon reflected any light
that month
the nights were too dark

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tornadoes in oklahoma: uranus/pluto square [astroloco]

Sudden [Uranus] destruction [Pluto] has made life an overwhelmingly difficult [Square] for our brothers and sisters in Oklahoma.

The lives of over 50 people were claimed by these surprisingly powerful storms on the very day that the Uranus/Pluto Square was exact.

This is how I KNOW astrology is real.

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Death is the result of this unexpected tragedy, but there is positivity even in death, and that is rebirth. Nothing lasts forever in this life. The sooner we accept that, the better of we will be. Embrace every loss, no matter how devastating, as an opportunity to start over again.

Our tears wash away the dirt of yesterday.
In the most pure way, we rebuild.

“what was ruined” by rob jenkins [documentary]

Before I began this blog, I was blessed to be cast in a very special production. Although our production is over, the story we told is a story that STILL needs to be heard. Fortunately, my friend made a documentary out of it. Please watch…

What Was RUINED? by Rob Jenkins

What was Ruined?-The documentary based on the play Ruined by Lynn Nottage. Both the play and this documentary discuss rape, war and the conditions of the Democratic Republic of the Congo. 

Ruined was performed at Marymount Manhattan College in the fall semester of 2012. This documentary was filmed during the preparation of the play.

The film contains clips from documentaries such as ‘Women on the Frontline- Democratic Republic of Congo” , “Crisis in the Congo: Uncovering the Truth” and “The Greatest Silence:Rape in the Congo”. It also contains footage of the play as well as actor interviews.

the aftershock: full moon in scorpio [astroloco]

What was revealed to you under yesterday’s Full Moon in Scorpio?

An empowering new source of income? The hidden, ulterior motive of a “loved one”? A new level of intimacy in your relationship? Maybe you allowed yourself to dig a little deeper into your OWN psychology, shining the light of clarity onto your obsessive compulsions.

In order to be grounded in reality, we must occasionally submerge into the dark recesses of the subconscious underworld. There are many treasures waiting there for those creative enough to see potential in latent resources, and patient enough to reawaken them.

Because the Full Moon was also a Lunar Eclipse, whatever discoveries you made are likely to be life changing. You are leaving behind the past, and stepping into the present. The moment. The now.

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Nice to meet you. I am Swami.

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passion in every peace: full moon in scorpio [astroloco]

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What we value is being transformed by the revelation of a mystery. If yesterday is history, then why is the present tense? Flexibility is perplexing, but there is great release in the occasional stretch. Although we’re being pulled in opposite directions, balance is the selection to ensure cosmic protection.

There is pain in every pleasure.
There is power in every potential.
There is passion in every peace.

full moon/lunar eclipse: scorpio [astroloco]

FULL MOON [LUNAR ECLIPSE] in SCORPIO
(April 25, 2013 @ 3:58 PM)

Illumination:
Money, elimination, power of desire

Reflection:
Do you feel stuck in situation that you’ve outgrown? Is your kindness being mistaken for weakness? Have you lost touch with your deepest, darkest feelings? Are you starting to wonder what is causing your insatiable sensual appetite?

Solution:
Maintain the peaceful beauty of your physical being by plumbing the dark mysteries of the subconscious mind in order to reclaim your personal power.

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